Sprachlos bin ich
Will dir Vollmacht geben
Wie du mir Liebe schenkst
Dem findend Sünder
Punkt Punkt Punkt
Allein in dir stillt sich mein Durst
Was könnt die Fülle übertreffen
Allein in dir komm ich zur Ruh
Wie könnt ich anders wollen sein
Den wahren Wunsch erfüllst du
Nicht den bloßen Willen
Und bist der Fels
Auf dem nur einmal ich muss bauen
Bist Leuchte mir in weißem Rauch wie auch in schwarzer Nacht
Dein Wort will ich verkünden
Wie ich es hör und ich es fühl
Dein Wunderwerk zu rühmen und zu preisen
Das scheint mir jedes Wagnis wert
Erst recht auch alle Torheit
Lachend bin ich Wanderer und Narr
Saturday, 27.5.2017, Ferentillo
Today started with a surprise - I met other pilgrims!! When I joined the breakfast table, there were also a dutch couple and some German guys. All of then took some slightly other routes, starting earlier or planning to end before Rome. Was quite nice to share some experiences and talk about our ways. Nonetheless I left and walked alone and today once again was marvellous. Although I have to confess that there were some moments when I tried to cross the wild forest when I asked myself why I'm doing this instead of sitting home and enjoying being comfortable and lazy. But then I rested on top of the mountain and had a look around... then I knew!
The first part of the way was still easy to walk and find but soon it started to be a challenging experience. Now or then the path completely vanished and I had to find my way on my own. There was a moment close to the Monte Fionchi, when I had doubts that I'm still right but as I looked into my guide, I was standing exactly at the position where the author did take the describing picture. When it started to go downhill it was similar and some of the mentioned marks I couldn't find... But somehow it seemed that I stayed on the right way.
Which lead along the mountain side and reminded me strongly that normally I'm afraid of heights... my excuse is that I'm born at the coast, the highest mountain of the island I'm from is just a hill with a size of barely 100 metres.
And as long as I remember my worst nightmares are about falling... from cliffs, from towers, from whatever!
Today I had to arrange with it again and again as I followed the narrow stony path while to my right I could look down for a few hundred metres. That's the disadvantage of a vivid imagination, it always felt like I'm close to losing balance and start bouncing down...
But fortunately I didn't :) ! When I thought about this fear I realized that it's maybe a necessary step to face this fear, cause some of the places I want to go in future are located quite high - Tiahuanaco in the Andes or the Buddhist monasteries of Nepal I'll not find on plain ground ;)!
The second half of the todays way were boring streets, winding endless down towards Ferentillo. So I decided to plug in my earphones and listen to an audiobook while I walked kilometre and kilometre. Listening to the adventures of the dwarfs in the middle of the mountains somehow felt matching... and now and then I even burst out laughing, can't remember that I did this when I read the book first years ago.
So time and distance passed by fast and soon I reached the little town Ferentillo, where I was witness of a beautiful wedding ceremony.
As I sat down at the main place to drink a birra and a cappuccino as walking reward, a lady asked me if I'm a pilgrim too and soon I was in the middle of a talk about our trips . She was a 58 year old woman from Würzburg, walking the Via Roma step by step every year, planning to finish in the coming week.
Central in our conversation was the experience that all you really have to do is to trust... it will turn out right in the end! Maybe that's by far the most important thing!
I told her about the one thing, I'm really convinced about by now.
Life is simple and incredibly difficult at the same moment, cause we have to make one decision in every instant anew... if you go down to the core it's always a choice between love and fear.
Choosing fear means erecting borders around you, choosing love means tearing them down. The tricky thing is only to find out what you're doing... But a seemingly good advice is that fear is always giving you a reason, love just feels right without.
When I look back at my (short) life I would say that it always was better to listen to my heart then my head...my life would have been dusty and boring otherwise. I'm feeling free and loved... and with this words I'll end for now and let you look at todays pictures without any further comments.
May love guide your way and lighten the burden you're carrying.
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